It’s moments like these that I catch of my child’s reactions that push me to be better and to be whole not only for myself but for her as well. I’ve been referred to as a ‘watermelon’ at the office (weird analogy right?), because when it comes to protecting and empathizing with people I will fight and protect like a Mother hen (with a hard ass shell on the outside) but I’m also the first one to shed tears when there’s anything emotionally driven. I absorb everyone’s emotions until it erupts like a volcano with the lava washing over me while burning myself in the process.
I suppose this stems from my earlier life experiences while growing up, which I will share at a later stage, that pushes me to empathize and feel for people on a different level. Many will consider this to be a good personality trait to have, but over the years I’ve struggled with situations that life has thrown at me that forced me to seek out the extra help and support of anti-depressants.
Mental health & medications to support you through difficult times have such a bad stigma to them, that I genuinely feel that those of us who can and are brave enough need to share our stories to desensitize people to it! I’ve been inspired by @breakingbrownsilence about the need to start sharing this openly and to get people talking about things we shy away from in order to normalize it. So definitely more to come about this in my #SundaySoul content.
So this week, I’ve decided it’s time to wean off the support & to move over to alternate methods to get back into ‘handling life’ on my own. Judge me if you must, but if you are struggling as a Mom/Female/Wife/Worker/SAHM/Human or whomever, in any aspect of your life, the support to overcome the trying times truly does benefit you and the quality of life that you project onto your kids and those around you.
Once again I invite you to self reflect as to how YOU are and how you’re ACTUALLY doing and NOT only how you think YOU SHOULD be doing.